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Fear of the Should

I should… two words that preceding a sentence (or a whole slew of sentences) have the power to make you want to blow your brains out. For example, waking up at noon on occasion will trigger an overwhelming sense of guilt because I should have been up earlier to get through more of my exceedingly depressing tasks, i.e. writing cover letters that are destined to never be read and orbit the internet for eternity. Once I’m up I should get at least halfway down my infamous list by dinner so that I feel productive and like I haven’t wasted yet another day gasping at someone from high school’s wedding album on Facebook (it is designed for us to creep!), experimenting in the kitchen with tofu (my most favorite method of procrastination) and watching an entire disc of Sex and the City Season 4 (my newest guilty pleasure).

The point is, by the end of the day I’m lucky if I’ve crossed even a couple of items off my list. A part of me wants to blame my lethargic lifestyle on low iron, considering I’ve been a vegetarian for almost a decade now. Then again, why blame myself when I can blame “I should” for causing me to stress to the point of becoming paralyzed with anxiety. These one-syllabled words build pressure. They most certainly do not allow you to enjoy anything else you may be partaking in because they hang at the back of your mind constantly reminding you of your unfinished business.

So here’s the solution… you tear this phrase right out of your vocabulary and substitute it for something like, “It would be more productive if…” or “I could finish this now and have more time to…”. I feel less stressed already!

Thank you to the friend who diagnosed me with the “I should” syndrome… you know who you are. Here’s hoping this cures a few others. 😉



About Little Miss Spanglish

Bright-eyed dreamer, set in her ways... enjoys working-out to slow jams. Hates being called by her full name by people close to her. Has never had a pet, yet has names picked out for her future fish, cat and Teacup pig (name of future dog still in the works). Loves receiving handwritten letters in the mail (long, handwritten messages in thoughtfully picked out cards also result in a smile). Will stare in disdain at her plate if it is inhabited by: brown rice, asparagus or beets (coming around on the beets). Finds skipping-down-a-sidewalk to be a lost art in adults... refuses to let that happen to her.


One thought on “Fear of the Should

  1. I love you! This is spot on! I totally have the I should syndrome… especially when it comes to food, in which case it turns to I can’t or I shouldn’t. I also do the list thing, but I try to get half the list done by noon, because for the rest of my day, I’m pretty lazy lol.

    Posted by May Tran | August 14, 2012, 7:51 pm

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