Where do nerves come from and how do you shut them off?
There’s nothing to be nervous about, you’ve discussed this with yourself plenty of times that morning. You don’t listen! The butterflies roam around freely. Shaking, gulping air in slowly, people-watching… none of it helps while you’re sitting there waiting to be called in for your audition. Finally, you hear your name, walk in and wobble over to the spot where you are requested to stand… you, along with three others. This reminds you of how they used to line up people before shooting them. And at that moment, you almost wish someone would. Of course you are selected to begin the painful process by spitting out the first line into the camera. And on the third try, you get it right on! Time to switch; this time, you’re the one that has to grin into the camera and put a spoonful of the delicious cereal into your mouth. In a desperate attempt to redeem yourself, you decide to flash them your best smile. And you hold it there for an unnatural amount of time, before tossing a spoonful of the dry, crunchy stuff into your mouth. Once you’re done chewing, you go back to exposing your big white teeth. They yell, “Thank you” and your audition is officially over.
Yes, this happened to me. And yes, once I had left the audition I was kicking myself thinking about the line I had managed to translate from English to gibberish on the first two takes. And then of course there was the creepy, static grin sprawled across my face for an uncomfortable amount of time. The experience was altogether horrifying. However, oddly enough I’m already looking forward to the next nerve-wrenching episode of “Heidi works towards fame”. I rather put myself out there and fail miserably, than not try anything at all for fear of failing. At the end of the day, the more experience you acquire, the better prepared you are to succeed. And one day you will!
And one day I will be the next George Stroumboulopoulos…you’ll see. 😉