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I wonder…

“Why does God let us fall for people that he knows aren’t good for us?” a friend of mine posed this question to me. We’ve both been on similar romantic paths for several months and to be quite truthful, thanks to our venting tournaments, I haven’t drowned myself in bottles of wine or puffed clouds of nicotine into my lungs. I guess it’s safe to say God gives us a choice…not His fault I keep making the wrong one. And the weirdest part is that even after I know I’ve made a bad decision, weighed the “pros” against the “cons” (producing a monumental cons list), I still choose to death-grip the relationship. I still imagine the guy I want to be with magically saying everything I want to hear and making up for our rotten past. Instead, I’m stuck facing the crude reality that he’s a grown ass man and he’s never going to change.


PS. Having said that, here’s a little something that inspired me to think positive:

“I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you can appreciate them when they’re right. You believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.”

Marilyn Monroe


About Little Miss Spanglish

Bright-eyed dreamer, set in her ways... enjoys working-out to slow jams. Hates being called by her full name by people close to her. Has never had a pet, yet has names picked out for her future fish, cat and Teacup pig (name of future dog still in the works). Loves receiving handwritten letters in the mail (long, handwritten messages in thoughtfully picked out cards also result in a smile). Will stare in disdain at her plate if it is inhabited by: brown rice, asparagus or beets (coming around on the beets). Finds skipping-down-a-sidewalk to be a lost art in adults... refuses to let that happen to her.


3 thoughts on “I wonder…

  1. Thanks for the pingback 🙂 and love your post. Sometimes you have to learn from what you do or date. I hope eventually you will find a “peaceful” relationship and everything falls into place. God might be setting you up to build you through a trail, or God might be wanting you to reach out to help the person he has set in your path. It might not be that God put you in front of a man to date him. Hang in there. I know you will eventually get what you pray for.

    Posted by We're Jumpin' | July 3, 2011, 10:18 pm
    • Thank you so much for your positive feedback and kind words. Your comment was my very first one and it was inspiring! I loved what you said about learning from “what you do or date”. I have definitely realized a lot about myself throughout this experience and hopefully, I will continue to do so (yup, I’m still dealing with it). I think you’re right, perhaps there is some alternate purpose for the connection between this person and I. It has briefly crossed my mind before, but hearing it from someone else has reinforced my belief that I’m supposed to be on this path and that “everything happens for a reason”. I will continue to pray and see where God leads me. Thanks again. All the best!


      Posted by Little Miss Spanglish | July 5, 2011, 1:20 am
  2. After seeing you blog posts on my news feed i decided to check it out. Heidi, God has given us the gift of free will. As human beings, sometimes we fail to recognize that we are doing something wrong. Unfortunately, the happens to most of us and we make the mistake to continue falling in pattern and we keep on making those same mistakes again and again. I trully believe any man can chage, as long as you put your heart and soul into what you are trying to achieve anything is possible. Sometimes our ignorance blinds and does not allow us to see the beauty and that special something that the other person pocesses. Dont search for that special guy…just be patient and kind, God will reward you with someone special who will love you and care for you so much. God loves us all and wants us to be happy. Just keep your head up, put your trust in Gods hands and you will get all the good things you deserve.

    God bless

    Posted by Robin | September 19, 2011, 8:03 pm

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